Stevie Ray Garza

Hey mijo, just here at work looking @ ur website. Reading & remembering all the funny things that u use to do & say. I think I read everyone's stories of u atleast 50 times if not more. It's been 4 years now that u left this cruel & ugly world. I wish I could be with u up there, but GOD has other plans 4 me. Not sure what they are yet, but I know its going to be good.. I knw u see me cry & hurting & I try to b strong & I wear a smile 4 all to see, but if u look past it u can see the pain I carry from loosing u. Im not as tough as I claim 2 b Ray. Its like Im holding on to something 4reasons Im not 2 sure of. But Ive been told that wen ur in the spiritual world as u r, u see all that we go thru, the mixed emotions, the good, the bad, the happy & the sad. Sometimes I just want to see all the good & not worry about anybody or anything. But when I do that someone always has to put me down in some way or another. I come home crying sometimes asking myslf "why does my family hate me so much"? I dont understand why? Maybe I never will know. I just have to look past it all & just try to move forward with my life. Be strong for MIKE & BENO. And Lil Edward as well. You have 3 nephews now all from Chistina. I call them "BEBE'S KIDS"..They r a handful I can tell u that. Baby Daniel is so much like u. He is the tough one just like his Uncle Stevie....Jett is the baby..I call hiim the"Lil Instagater" because he just loves to cause trouble and run when it all starts to go down. They are so funny its just fun to watch them as they play and wrestle & get into things that they're not suppose to get into. And Andrew well he still remembers u as if u were still here. He says that u viisit him in his dreams & tells me what u say. He knows when Im thinking of u as if he sees right thru me. Angel just got engaged 2 wks ago to Chriis. She seems to be doing well & she is happy. As long as he takes care of her that's all that matters. And for Cheena, well with 3 boys & Anthony she has her hands full. Plus she takes care of Edward for me while I work. Mijo just know that we all love u & miss u so much. I knw I will see u again one day, But until Then " Keep Smiliing My Lil Boy Blue".....Love Mom....<3<3<3

Hey Mijo, just want you to know that I miss you so much. I wish you were still here with us all. I need your guidance in helpping me with your brothers. I'm so lost with out you Stevie. I wish there was a way I could see you one more time. Mike's birthday is tomorrow, he'll be 15. He misses you so much too. As far as Alvino goes, well he's cutting himself again. Stevie you are their big brother and they need you mijo. Please guide them and let them know that we alove them and we don't want anything to happen to them. Stevie you will always be loved & missed and always be in our hearts. Shine down on us mijo and save a seat for me right next to you.           "I love you Stevie Ray"

Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am the sparkle in the snow.
I am the shredded leaves that blow.
I am the sunlight on growing grain.
I am the gentle summer rain.
I am the quiet bird at night.
Circling about; Taking flight.
So do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.

Go rest now precious one,
Your life in eternity has just begun.
Now you can walk, your legs are brand
new.
All of heaven is now in your view.

Look all around,it's all in your sight,
There will never be another dark night.
Flowers and jewels, the street of pure gold,and all of the things that have been told.

I can just imagine the smile on your face as you walk all around in that beautiful place.
Greeting our loved ones as you walk along,while singing heaven's most beautiful song.

This is so very hard,but it will all be okay,it isn't goodbye,we'll see you one day.
We love you and we'll miss you and at times it will be tough,but as with everything,God's grace will be enough.

HEY STEVO JUST WANNA LET U KNOW WELL U ALREADY KNOW DAT I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU.. YESTERDAY I WAS WID UR SISTER AND WE WERE TALKING ABOUT YOU.. JUST HOW STUPID AND CRAZY U QOULD ACK AND HOW WE MISS YOU ALOT.. ITS CRAZY HOW YOUR NOT HERE ANYMORE.. ITS LIKE EVERYTIME I EXPECT TO SEE YOU AND THEN IT HITS ME UR NOT HERE PHYSICALLY AND I JUST CRY CUZ I WAS SO USE TO SEEING YOU LIKE EVERY DAY AND NOW I DONT SEE YOU ANYDAYS.. ITS HARD  FOR OUR FAMILY .. I TALK TO JON AND HE MISSES YOU TOO.. HE FINALLY WROTE ME AND I WAS HAPPY TO HEAR FRM HIM.. IT WOULD JUST MAKE MY DAY TO FILL UR KISSES AND HUGS UR TIGHT BEAR HUGS U WOULD GIVE ME TILL I COULDNT BREATH.. AND START YELLING "STEVIE IMA KICK UR ASS"AND U WOULD LE GO AND RUN LIKE A GAL..LOL.. WELL GOTTA GO IM TRYNA NOT TO CRY SOMETHING U DONT WANT ME TO DO .. SO TILL WE CHILL AGAIN.. WHEN GOD S READY FOR ME.. SEE U UP IN HEAVEN WERE U ARE G... LOVE U STEVIE RAY.. AND MISS YOU ALOT... **MUAAAAAHHHH***

ey mijo well i visit this page almost all the time and wish you were here to see how many people love you and miss you and show you so much respect.i just wish we couldve never parted ways. getting older without you by my side succz a lot hunn.theres always new people coming up to me telling me they know you that makes me happy to know they still care about you just as much as i care about you. i wish i couldve been there to see you smile like you used too. i remember one christmas you and your family spent it with me at my house.we watched wrestling and how the grinch stole christmas i miss that alot. we had fun that year laughing and talking.my lil sis karla has your dimples mijo.their on the same spot.when i look at her i smile and remember you and i pray for you everyday.we miss you a lot mijo.we love you so much dont ever forget that ok?.

love your cousin

[johanna]

man my lil nigga.. as i write u diz i drop tears.. why couldnt u smoke a sweet instead of causin so much pain.. u thought no one really cared well dat day we put u to rest alot of people were there.. even teachrs. dat one guy dat i would always see u in da office w was there.. and couldnt believe it either.. i cant forget u mijo.. i cry eveynight bck i wish u was w me. im tryin to do better now.. i want to go on but somethin holds me back and u always told me just keep yo head up and fuck it.. do wut u got to do. i wont remember when u would give me ur shoulder to cry on and when id pick u up ud be lik chill lily.. u fuckin crzy.. and the way u used to laugh so hard at everyone fuckin up and ud point at em and laugh so hard lik dat one female dat almost fell u pointed at her and said damn dat bitch almost fell and she looked at u and all u did was laugh and point.. haha.. i miss u mijo.. but i know ure not trully gone.. take care ok.. i luv u always and lik i said u was always lik my lil bro bc u could never stay still ud get pissed when we wouldnt have nothin to do. lik dat time in da shack... u was wreckin it sayin man danny throwin trash in my shack and i said dont do dat.. man do i miss ur lil soulja self.. always stayed strong. always kept ur head up high now we shall do da same for u bc i know u dont want no one still cryin.. we miss u tho.. wut can i say.. i luv u oka.. watch over ur family mijo bc we'll all make it thru one way or another..

hey stevie itz monique jus passin thru to say dat i love an miss you an wish that i cud trn bacc tha hands in time an make it all better so that kno body wud be hurting rite now an weed be chillin laughin wit you like you alwase made us do..itz been so hard to kno that ur no longer here wit us till diz day if only we cud make things diffrent but all i cud do is pary. we all kno dat you will alwase be rememberd forever and forever u will saty stay with us and say, say that its gunna be okay if only i could here those words cumin from tha soulja, you the soulja who alwase held his head high there wus never kno goodbyes but thats sumthin that i couldnt say sumthin that i wouldnt want to say..but ur gone an thats sumthin i could never change i love you and i kno you do to ur mom is a verry strong woman jus like you were...i love you stevie ray forever an ever an never will dat change R.I.P